1. The silence that we create defines more than those unspoken words.
2. The moment that smile can be seen in her face, it is magical.
3. The moment that we see each other’s eye, we just know what we’ve
been waiting for.
When the last leaf falls my heart belongs to one. Near the grave where the sun sets, lies a tree which have leaves of 7 colors. They turn blue when the sun is near the horizon. That’s when I saw your name engraved on the trunk of the tree.
And I realized it was already night.
I really don’t know how long I’ve been like this.
Will I be back, will I be born again?
I really don’t know.
Sometimes the stars seem bright,
but there are days when they look old and rusty.
Where will I begin on this journey is unknown,
Where will I begin? I still don’t know.
We try to look back and we see some holes,
we try to go forward but we always fall.
The desire to chase happiness is there,
Its always there. It never leaves. Constantly there.
We may not figure this out a lot,
but there are moments where we blink and we know it.
Love is a measurement of our life. A ruler.
But love is the greatest sin one can commit.
Scarlet hue. I took a bite but I realized there was nothing. An inevitable illusion.
She held my hand and tears fell down from the sky. She was like an angel from heaven.
It was one cold winter night and I want to go back to her.
In the night, I like to see that star that only the two of us can see…
In the morning, I like how the streak of light touches your face and show the curves on it, its magical…
Everyday, I like to show to the people around us how precious was your smile to me…
I guess the wind was with me when I said that, coz I like how it blew some part of your hair.
I’ll happily wait at the bench where we used to sit and we’ll watch the sun as it bids goodbye to its beloved sky.
And I would take that time to say to you, that ‘I like the way you are’.
– an original composition for my baby.
Pain will surge in your heart like a flowing stream when you know that the greatest sacrifices you’ve made were not worth it. And the mere thoughts of it bring some uncomfortable twinges in your mind. But the good side about it is that you know your heart is being strengthened by the Hand of our Loving Father.
“The time that you are getting to know each other very well is also the time that you will discover some flaws on each other. But this is what love is all about, you don’t try see beyond it but you look straigth through it.”
There’s this burden in my heart. I don’t know if I can withstand.
Such heavy heart I have right now, I don’t even think a lot.
With all the sights, unhappy and melancholic scenes
I always put on a mask, white and black as usual.
Wearing a fake smile as gleams of light touches my face.
I am nowhere to be found. I’m in a never ending black hole.
Across the vast universe, you can see me floating.
Why am I not visible to anyone right now?
I miss walking in the winter, watching as the snow falls graciously.
I am creating a barrier. That no one could ever see.
And I am torn on what I like to do and what I need to do.
I hope someone would be able to find me.
I hope someone would ever care to look upon the mist.
For through it, you can see the crystal tears.
Tears that were product of an unending search for truth.
I am happy. But I am not.
I am here. But I am really not.
Where should I go? Where should I hide?
There’s nowhere. Only in the arms of an angel.
Just a moment ago, a friend shared to me about her struggle in work. Well we all have that right? Sometimes, we are positioned in a place that we don’t want at the first place. We have this uncomfortable feeling toward our situation and we think of ways on how to get away with it. Well I believe that it will only worsen things.
I believe that everything happen for a purpose. We may not be able to see the beautiful scenery because our views are blocked by high mountains. These mountains could be insecurities, high expectations, pride and etc. (It will take me weeks to enumerate all of those mountains humans have). But, there’s a big but in here, we can always find hope when we do things not by our own strength but by God’s strength. I know I may sound religious to you but this is not about this, it’s about saying to the God who loves you that ‘hey God, I am leaving it all behind to You because I admit that I’m weak’. Well, this maybe hard at first for we can only see the mountains ahead of us but try thinking of our Loving Father… after all He is the one who created all things, why don’t this time in your life you try to give it all up to Him. Nothing will lose if you do this. Just try and let’s see how things will work.
For years we are guided by ourselves in a path that leads to nowhere… Now allow Him to guide you to a path of peace and love.
Well have you ever felt sad even when you don’t have any reason to be sad. Yeah at first you don’t have any clue why you’re sad but as you feel the melancholic mist swirling in your mind then you start to think and remember things that could be the possible reason of this bothering and not so good feeling. It is a burden.
Well that happened to me today. All of a sudden, out of nowhere I have this really heavy feeling in my heart which starts to make me feel sad. I really don’t understand it at first but then I try to recall things that could be possibly the reason for this out-of-nowhere melancholic feeling. Well the trauma starts here, when you start recalling or remembering things that could possibly be it, the reason behind all of these uncomfortable feeling. Because you start assuming that MAYBE, yeah maybe this things could be the one and only reason why I am feeling this way. Well it’s a little traumatic when you think of it, coz you’re starting to remember the situation or that thing or that event that make you sad and you started slowly to feel those feelings you had before during those moments. Well, it’s hunting in a way.
What I have learned during this battle, first that it’s really hard to control these swirling-like-tornado melancholic emotions especially when you are not that emotionally strong. Under these circumstances you tend to give in to your emotions and just go with the flow. Yeah ‘I’m sad’ said my emotion, so I am going to be sad. Second thing that I learned is that at the end of the day you will realize that it’s all in the mind. But the thing here is, not all can realize it at the end of the day and worse many will tend to give in to that feeling and will start living in it. Folks, I strongly believe that’s it’s all in the mind. How you fight emotions is not with another emotion but you build the battling arena on a higher place and that is the WAY YOU THINK. The way you see things and the way you perceive things can make a big difference.
I cannot say that I am expert in here; well what I could proudly say is that we’re all the same in here. We are like soldiers in a battlefield. But one thing I would like to share with you is that what makes me go marching on even though I can see the gigantic tornado of melancholy in front of me is the strong foundation that I have. I always carry with me the sword of faith which makes me feel that I can win this battle.
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